How happy you are is equivalent to your sadness. You could be on top of the world Friday at midnight and the happiest person alive and by Friday morning you’re so sad it’s bordering on depression. So you try to get that happiness again, get that high feeling. And we say we don’t have an addiction. But you never truly get that peak of happiness again.You get close but you never seem to get there. And you know afterwards sooner or later sadness is coming. Because it’s the first thing you think about when you’re happy ” When will it be over? When is it coming? Will it hurt as much as last? Will I survive it ? Can’t I have this just a little bit longer? Just enough to catch my breath before it hits.” And we pretend as if we aren’t counting the hours, watching the light in our eyes. It feels like every amount of happiness I get afterwards the same amount of sadness hits me. I guess sadness has to play its part. Nothing lasts forever. It’s what reminds us that we and this world aren’t perfect .