So this motherfucker had the nerve , nerve i dare say to not even say Happy Holidays , not even a hi , not even a sup . Maybe it’s because i told him to fuck off .Why do Muslims guys have to be soo disrespectful .I know it’s not all of them, you can’t put a stereotype on everyone because of one bad experience you have had .But he was all I had , he was the only friend i had .
He made me feel special .I know it’s naive and desperate .But he was the only guy or person i talked to besides my parents. I liked him so much . I guess i got boring and he moved on . He once told me there are so many pretty girls in my country , why would i want you ?
My heart broke .
I guess we all learn the hard way huh . I was so stupid , i cudve done better things with my time .But i just wanted someone to talk to , to feel wanted , is that so much to ask for . The asshole . I remembered his birthday , he cudn’t even remember mine .When i told him he said Oh and just continued the conversation .
I know this will offend alot of Muslims but i hope the motherfucker chokes on a Torah .
What do you know i even have bad luck with online guys .
I just wanted someone to talk to and he let me down , he made me feel worse about myself than better and no one should ever make you feel that way .
He just wanted to be an older guy talking to a young girl so he could discuss and laugh at me with his friends .That’s all i was ,an internet booty call .And in some ways i let him , i feel so used .This guy played with my emotions so much .Telling me he loved me, he told me things .When he didn’t get his way he would be suicidal , mad , say i wasn’t open with him .
I hope one day someone does the same to him because what goes around comes around .But how do people do that ? Play with people’s emotions for their gain .Give them false hope and rip it from their hand like air being sucked out of you and your fighting to breath .
I feel like i’ve let myself down , again and again .
I just want to love someone and have them love me back , even if it only lasts a minute . I just wanna be loved .
i just want to be the first thing somebody thinks of when they wake up , the first person they message .Everybody is young and in love . Im young where is fucking love ?
Is that too much to ask for ?